This is a bad week. I couldn't sleep at night. I tried meditating at night, which I normally do before I sleep every night to calm my mind, but it didn't work this week. A lot of crying in the night and yesterday was really bad. I started tearing in class, and started sobbing in the library. I feel very sad and empty inside. It has been alright the past few weeks but this week is all coming back. And I'm not even pms-ing.

I'm so tired of having to be strong all the time. I am. But I know if I just break down, people will get worried and I hate that to happen. So I'll trudge on and have faith in God.

I thank god for my new friends here. They are a source of distraction and they are wonderful. But it's still very hard. For those of you who know what I'm going through, thanks for always being there and making sure I'm ok. Maya, Diana, Nad, Wendy, Angela and Vidhu. Love you guys. I'll be fine, don't worry. :) I hope it gets better.