I had such a crazy week last week. Not that it's not crazy this week, but I'm at least in the office to spend some time doing my work.

Have a whole load of pictures to upload, after spending Fri night celebrating Wendy's birthday and Sat celebrating Mother's Day. But I have no mood to upload cos I just ended a 10-hr meeting. Yup. 10-hr. From 8.30am-6.30pm. With a 1 hr lunch break. I was almost crying.

Dev got his PR. Yup, for those who are not in the know, he has been in Australia studying for 10 years, before he came back to Singapore, where we met and got together. He applied for his PR end 2005 and he got it last Thursday. It was a 1 year and a half worth of waiting.

It's funny. I've always known that he wants to reside there permanently, and I've been open to the idea of eventually being there with him. I would probably enjoy being there, less hectic, better weather, more things to do. So I was surprised that I was surprised when he told me he got his PR. (I know, that sounds weird. But you guys understand). I was happy, obviously, but amidst the happiness, there was this nagging fear in me.

What does this mean? It will mean that Dev will be going over soon. He intends to quit his job here, get a job in Australia and settle there from next year onwards. That's not an issue cos I'll be there as well, studying. But it also means that he will not come back and this has implications on me. Cos it means I will have to settle there too. Maybe not immediately cos I have a 1 year bond to serve but after my Masters, I will probably stay on in Sinagpore for a year max before I leave for Australia for good. To be with him. This is of course on the premsie that we are married. And we are are probably going to start planning for this soon cos we were waiting for his PR to come before we actually do anything about this.

I'm happy that things are finally falling into place, but I'm kind of scared too. I have to give up so many things. My friends, whom I hold close to my heart, my family, my job, familiarity. It's so unnerving to give up all that for the unknown. The only known thing there will be Dev. I'm not sure what I should do. But I know I want to be with Dev and he will only be happy there. And I want him to be happy. And I'll be happy there too but when I think of all that I'm giving up, I feel sad. Am I making sense here?

Urgh....I'll blog tomorrow or something. I'm rambling.