I have been whinging and whining so much the last two weeks. What about? Let's see....

1. The insane amount on marking I have.
2. The lack of personal space at home.
3. Missing Jay in Melbourne.
4. The preparation I need to do for June holiday remedial sessions.
5. The lack of social life due to the crazy amount of work.
6. Feeling fat.
7. Just a general feeling of shittiness cos of things going on around me.

As you can tell, some of things are really trivial, while some are more serious. But at the end of the day, these issues made me really grumpy, and I haven't been a bundle of joy to be with the last 2 weeks or so.

Two things happened this week......

This week, I got a message from Ryan. I haven't talked to him for ages. I've been so bloody busy and pre occupied with my own things and life, that I haven't been in contact with him. The last we talked was during my bday, and that was 9 weeks ago. Which is crazy long. And it's not that he hasn't been trying to call or anything, but my phone has been wonky for a while now and honestly, I wasn't in the right frame of my mind to chat with anyone. You know the saying 'Misery loves company'? Well, I am not an advocator for that. I believe that there's no point in sharing your misery with other people, cos they will be miserable too, and what's the point in having 2 unhappy people right?

But of course, Ryan, after trying incessantly to contact me for 9 whole weeks (I swear, he is persistent), dropped me a facebook message, asking if I was avoiding him. WHICH I OBVIOUSLY WASN'T! I got so guilty, and that night, we finally talked on my landline. And God, it was so great to talk to him again. He is so wonderful, I swear. Put a lot of things in perspective for me. He made me remember why I love life, and why I should be appreciative with what I have, and that I am a great person (without sounding egocentric.) He made me excited and passionate all over again, and love my life once more (not that I hated it, but I forgot for a while). And he really showed how much he cared and loved me. And that's what true friends are for, isn't it? To be with you in times of need. Love you Ryan for being so great. :) Im looking forward to meeting you this June! Talk, shop, eat, club, dance, gossip, bitch, shop, eat......You get point. :)

And yesterday, I had a long chat with one of my boys, and again, the conversation I had with him truly made me realise the impact I have on people around me and the importance I have in their lives. I always assume that yes, my kids love me and yes, they have fun with me. But yesterday made me saw a much bigger picture. That for some of them, I wasn't just there for fun and games or as a teacher. I truly povide the guidance and light at the end of the tunnel for them. That I gave them the hope for a better future. And upon that realisation, it made the issues I was grappling with seemed so trivial. There are more important things in life to be worried about, and I truly believe that life needs to be lived in the most fulfilling manner possible. And I think what Im doing with my kids is something fulfilling, and extremely satisfying.

 And with these 2 groups of people that I love most, they have made me see the light. :) I am fortunate, and I thank God for that.