Something is wrong with blogger. Being a bitch, can't seem to upload pictures and I have loads to put up cos I have a new phone, and I finally figured out how to upload pictures from my phone to my laptop. Took loads last week, with different people, Diana, Angela, Godberg, Chan, Mrs Yau, my mom, my sis, my babies, ....oh well, when blogger is being less of a bitch, I will do the uploading.

Kind of had a fairly crappy week. Didnt do much last weekend, aside from meeting Diana for late lunch and coffee and a bit of shopping. She looks fab, and it was really nice seeing her again! :) Nothing beats seeing her. I havent seen her for months, but we just carried on as though we just met the day before....:)Aside from that, and a little bit of gymming on Sunday, I didnt do much else. I was really tired last week, so spent a lot of time catching up on lost sleep.

For some reason last week, I felt really shitty about myself. It just feels that everyone around me is moving on, and leaving me behind. I actually have been feeling shitty whole of last week, and couldnt pinpoint the reason why. Then on Thursday, I received a letter from Khalidal. She sent me my bday gift through mail to my school, and in it was a bday card and a letter. A very long letter. She asked how I was, and that she missed me, and she wondered if something was wrong. And I started crying cos I miss her so much, but I just feel out of it. She just gave birth, and I feel that she needs time to focus on her new family.I met her last when she just gave birth, with Yati, and I just felt so out of place. I mean, the whole conversation was about takingcare of new born, and being in labour, and the best milk to feed the baby, and I just felt really out of place. I know, K just gave birth, but the whole scenario just reminded me of how Im still stuck in the same place. And I knew K was aware of it, but what could we do? So I havent met her for like ages, and then I received that letter from her. I swear, only K knows what I feel and go through. We seldom meet, but she knows when something is wrong, it's just a thing between both of us. And I called her immediately, and talked for a short while, but we promised to meet up soon. K, call me soon darling...I miss you..Loads to update u and vice versa.

And that made me think about where I am right now with my life. Im a pretty confident person, but at times, I do wonder if I am missing the boat. Everyone around me is either married, getting married, engaged, have babies, having babies, or in a stable relationship. And Im still....well, Im still the same as I was 5 years ago. There's nothing wrong with being me, but I do wonder at times, when it wil be my turn. Maybe Im pmsing ( though my period wont come for anotehr 2 weeks..lol!I know, information overload), or maybe Im realisng Im getting to the big 3-0 soon. I've always told myself that being with someone just for the sake of being with someone is useless cos you are going to end up compromising on too many things, and you end up bitter and uhappy. It's better being on your own, and live your life the way you want it, and if a nice person comes along, who shares the same principles and goals in life as you, he will accentuate your life in a more positive way. But I have to admit, at times, I do wish I get the same kind of happiness that all my other attached friends are having. It's as though they have all gone to the next chapter of their lives but Im stuck at the same chapter. And maybe thats why Im so restless all the time, cos I get bored very easily. And I have a lot of love to give, and on top of heaping it on my family and friends, I am showering all these love I have in me to my students.

Let's hope next week is a better week. At least the week is ending....:)