GOD! It has been over a month since I last blogged!! That's how busy I have been! It's crazy. So many things have happened since. There was Hari Raya, there was my Teachers Day dinner and concert, and of course, my Bali trip. Which I had a blast. It was such a good break. I am not going to bother with pictures cos it's all in my facebook anyway, so check them out there if you want to see the pictures. But Bali was like a slice of heaven for me. After doing the National Day concert, and then the Teachers Day concert, and then crazy marking for prelims and preparing my kids for the GCE N Levels paper, I was in major need of a break. And when I reached Bali, I switched off my phone and literally did nothing. We got into our chauffered driven car, and got whisked away to our private and very-exclusive villa: Amala Residence. We got straight to business by getting a 90 mins massage, before dressing up and hitting KuDeTa. AND I LOVE IT THERE! I was worried it was going to be all uppity, like the one in Singapore. I have been to the one in Spore once and I was not impressed by both the service and the food. So I wasn't really expecting much with the one in Bali but I was pleasantly surprised. Great service, food was fabulous, price on the steep side but hey, it's a touristy place so what do you expect right? But we were seated right in front of the beach, breeze in our hair, sipping mocktails , eating sorbet...Life was perfect then...:) And for the next few days, we massaged, spa-ed, facial-ed, swam, got drive around, had dinner by the beach, candle lit dinner, the works....Needless to say, I was devastated when we had to go back...Anyway, I am going to try and make this a yearly Sept affair to keep my sanity.

And from then on, it has only been 2 weeks of school, but I am barely keeping afloat. I have always been an organised and efficient person. I always cope with my work, and even had a lot of time to spare. But this term has been crazy. I am doing so much work it's insane. I am doing a normal teacher's work, plus my portfolio's work and I am covering duty for another portfolio...It's insane... For the first time in my life, I can feel myself struggling. I haven't had the time to restart my pole dance 3, I haven't ran since Bali. The only exercise I do now is my Hot yoga classes twice a week and even then, it is a struggle for me to go on weekdays cos I have meetings almost every afternoon, meetings which can last till 7pm!

And to make things worse, I have been sick for the past 4 weeks. On and off, on and off. Started with a fever, and then the throat, and then fever, and then throat. I actually went to Bali nursing a fever and a sore throat. I have been self medicating until last week when I could feel there was a growth in my throat. And I had no choice but to get it checked cos my voice is my bread and butter. True enough, there is an ulcer or even ulcers in my throat which makes it so hard for me to eat and drink. And cos I haven't been well, and haven't been eating properly, I have been losing weight. I know I am usually happy when I lose weight, and I will be jumping around the place, but I feel really weak. I lost 3 kg from fasting, and I have lost another 1.5kg. Urgh....I don't know it it's a good thing or a bad thing. But 2 of my friends have said that I look like I am shrinking, one has called me a lollipop head (God, that was what Maya and gang used to call me when I was in uni and was a skeleton), and another has said I have eating disorders. What the hell..I so do not have an eating disorder. I think it's the not-eating-properly-cos-it's-too-damn-hard-to-swallow, plus the being-disgustingly-sick plus the ongoing exercising. I cannot don't exercise cos it's my only solace from the craziness in school. But even exercising is a struggle for me. I did a hot vinyasa class today, and I came out of the class half dead, and the veins on my forehead were popping and throbbing like crazy. Angela was so stressed cos she thought I popped a blood vessel. I had to calm down for 45 mins before the crazy throbbing stopped. I am hoping that things would look up after this week cos exams will start, so I can juggle my time better, and the doctor's medication would make me better too.

And I am looking forward to my year end trip so in the meantime, I am just going to plough through October and pray I do not collapse and die before my holidays.....Urgh...